Sober, grateful and embracing life. Insomnia is now a thing of the past. Going to bed at a reasonable hour now. I has been a long four months to get my sleep under control. All is well. Side affect of being sober: long nails.
These new nails are a treat. They keep tripping me up in unexpected moments. The keyboard is a new domain. Doing up buttons, putting hands in pockets, feeling the earth. All of it feels new and weird. Honestly this is the first time to have long natural nails in my whole entire life. I am not making this up. This is one gift I have unexpectedly received from being sober. I have bought nail polish! I went and had a manicure done. I painted my nails today. Colour Rebel, a beautiful pale blue shimmery colour. Beautiful. I must admit one hand it better than the other. Practice will improve this over time. I had to redo three fingers on my left hand. I rubbed them on something before they were dry.

Patience is what I have learnt about long nails. I have waited for fifty years for long beautiful natural nails. I never gave up hope. I might have lost hope at times, even been jealous of others. The goal seemed so far out of my reach that it was like looking through thick bulletproof glass to something untouchable, unobtainable. When I was thinking about being sober the nails crept up on me while I wasn’t watching.

Long nails aren’t just long nails. They are my new found confidence. They are a symbol of tossed aside anxieties. They are so much more than painted nails. Forgive me as I go on about them. For me they are a huge achievement. Striding along the right path makes all the difference. I am clearly walking in the right direction.

Sober treat: Painted my nails, colour REBEL by Zoya (Pale shimmery blue)