Inner Strength

Finding this inner strength that I have isn’t easy. I have thrown rocks in my own path, stacked it at the back of a storage shed behind the towering boxes, I have left it alone amongst the cobwebs and dust. I did it to myself. I buried it instead of using it.

One year sober. Who would have thought it? I wasn’t certain I would get this far. I added one day to the next and here we are with days sewn into weeks, patched into months and I’ve gone and made an annual quilt of hand stitched threads of soberness.

It feels good. This strength that I have found is saying I can handle it. Whatever it may be I can handle it.

I’m re-reading Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway, by Susan Jeffers. It’s a different read than when I read it years ago. That’s a good thing. I’m learning something new about myself.

Being curious, reading, seeking and trying are traits that never get old. It makes me a perpetual student. I won’t stop.

Today my plan for the afternoon is reading on the couch with the Christmas tree lights on and the doors wide open. I’m resting my ankle again but wiggling my toes. It’s a sunny day. The cicadas are singing. It’s a good day.

Sober as. A piece of string.

16 thoughts on “Inner Strength

  1. “Finding this inner strength that I have isn’t easy. I have thrown rocks in my own path, stacked it at the back of a storage shed behind the towering boxes, I have left it alone amongst the cobwebs and dust. I did it to myself. I buried it instead of using it.”

    Love it. Yep. Same here. Working on it!! :)))

    And hello, fanfare…. ONE YEAR!?!?!?!?!?!?!? 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉👯‍♂️👯‍♀️👯‍♂️👯‍♀️👯‍♂️👯‍♀️👯‍♂️👯‍♀️👯‍♂️👯‍♀️👯‍♂️👯‍♀️🎂

    This is amazing. Inspiring. Makes me want to keep going. Yeeeeehawwwwww!!!!!!!

    Rock on, LT. ❤️😊

    oh and “The cicadas are singing”? How awesome is that. sounds like the world is right side up over there. 🤩☀️👌

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  2. “I added one day to the next and here we are with days sewn into weeks, patched into months and I’ve gone and made an annual quilt of hand stitched threads of soberness”
    I’m taking that, writing it down and sticking it on my dressing table mirror to remind myself every morning and afternoon!! You deserve a really good day
    Claire xx

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